Bitter yet sweet end

On Friday I completed my last day of classes...EVER! (Unless I go to graduate school, but that is beyond the point) It just so happened that my last class of the day was with my favorite accounting professor, Glade Tew. Just before class started, I told him that he should feel privileged to be my teacher for the last class of my last day of classes. He laughed and said that he did feel privileged. Then we started talking about how many classes I have had with him. The number is 4, in case you were wondering. I wish you could see what I was thinking when we tried to count the classes. I began remembering all of the times that I sat in Brother Tew’s classroom. Memories poured into my head and almost caused a flash flood! Let me attempt to draw you a picture of my thoughts. I thoroughly enjoy my days in Accounting 201, sitting next to Lanae Akiona and laughing at Bro. Tew’s subtle humor and the way he put his hands on his head, shook his shoulders when he laughed and rubbed his head when students asked a ‘difficult’ question. Then came Accounting 301 where Dustin, Lindsay and I all laughed so hard the day Bro. Tew ducked down behind the podium to teach class because a student pointed out that he was wrong. And finally this last semester, I have Accounting 312 and 440 with him and it was such a joy to see him everyday. All of these memories came rushing into my head as I sat in the final class I would have with this great teacher. Class ended and I walked to the front of the room to shake his hand and tell him that it has been a pleasure. He told me the same and then said something like go out and do some good!
I left the classroom and walked down the Mckay hallway one last time. As I passed friends and strangers, I had this sad realization that this would be the last time that I walked down this familiar hall after class. I felt sad that for the friends I am leaving behind and the people that I never knew. The tears just started flowing and I wasn’t even expecting them. Since Friday I have been on the brink of tears. I just force myself to stop thinking about it. I will always remember the time that I have spent here in Hawaii. I know that I will most likely never see these people ever again, and I hope that I can be a good friend and stay in contact. I have loved walking down the hall here and seeing someone from Japan or Tonga or New Zealand. I will miss the having an international feeling all around. I don’t think that there is any other school that has such a feeling of love and peace. I hope that I will be able to carry that feeling to the next stage of my life.

Wait for me!

My younger sister text me today and said, "Just one month left until you are done!!! Hooray! :)" All I can think about are all of the things that I still need to do before I can breathe that sigh of relief. Stress keeps piling up and I can't seem to shake it enough to relax and enjoy my last semester here in Hawaii.
As I am coming to the close of my college days, I can't help but think of the Jack Johnson song that says:

Slow down everyone
You're moving too fast
Frames can't catch you when
You're moving like that

Life seems to be moving too fast for me! I want to enjoy this time of carefree days, but time just keeps on ticking and pulling me forward. I feel like yelling 'Wait for me!' Life shouldn't be moving on without me! But time can't hear my inaudible plea.
I want to play and live without any responsibilities of the 'real world'. Yet, I feel like it is time for me to move on and try another new and exciting adventure. I only wish I knew what that new and exciting adventure might be. I don't want my time here to be over. I have loved almost every minute of my time here and it is sad to think that I will never be able to recreate the time that I have spent here. Change is unevitable. I only wish it didn't scare me so much!

Nostalgia

I know that I haven't left Hawaii yet, but already I am feeling a bit nostalgic. I don't ever want to leave my friends behind. Sometimes walking home from school I find myself already missing this great place. I am so grateful for the time I have had here. I don't like to think about leaving, but it is reality and now that I am graduating it is time to face reality head on. I will always remember the lessons learned, the adventures had and the friendships made in Hawaii.

Still confused

If you know me at all, you know that I am very very indecisive. I have a hard time choosing from a vast array of choices. For example when I walk into Taco Bell every week, I still take about 4 minutes looking at the menu board and for fast food restaurants that is a LONG time! That in mind, I have to make some of the biggest decisions of my life within the next three months. Where am I going to live after I graduate? What kind of accounting job am I looking for? Do I want to work in public accounting or in managerial accounting? Should I go on to graduate school? Should I go back to Utah and hope that everything will work out? Should I become CPA certified and take the four exams to do so and if so when? My mind has been bombarded by this constant nagging of myself. I have yet to reach any conclusions and I am still as confused as ever. For once can't I be the self-assured person that knows what they are doing and where they are headed in life? It sure would make life a heck of a lot easier!!!!
Today was the Career Fair on campus and the main thing that I learned from it was that I should have been ahead of the game and looking for a job when I was a sophomore or a junior because now that I am graduating in just under two months no one wants me. They like to meet future candidates and have them work as interns before they really want to hire them.... I'M SCREWED!!!!! When I was a sophomore I had no idea what the definition of an asset or liability was and yet they wanted me to search for a job. I would have been a babbling IDIOT in an interview. Needless to say, I am a little stressed out and I still feel like I am frantically running in circles like a chicken with its head cut off, trying to find help and hoping that it isn't too late for me!

Love-hate relationship

Right now I have this sort of love-hate relationship with Hawaii! One day I love it because it is a beautiful day and I am able to take advantage of it and go to the beach... the next day I hate it because it is a beautiful day and I am stuck doing homework in the school library. I am starting to worry that I won't be able to finish all of the things that I need to finish in order to graduate. I have four accounting classes to take this semester in order to graduate. I am taking three of them from here and they all pile on the homework and presentations... PLUS I have an online accounting class that I am supposed to finish by Thanksgiving in order to have my transcripts sent over. This week alone I have two tests, a major presentation and regular homework.... I don't think that I will ever be able to appreciate the beauty I am surrounded by because I have so much work to do!!!! I am STRESSING Out!!

Another reason why I have a love-hate relationship with Hawaii is because of the rain... One second it will be so hot and sunny and within seconds all of that changes and it is pouring on me as I walk to school. I already have a hard enough time wanting to walk to school... and rain does not help the situation! About a week ago, my roommate Birgitte and I attempted to go to Hukilau beach. We literally got there, laid down our towels and sat down when it started to sprinkle on us. We were stubborn and stayed there for five more minutes because sometimes it clears up. Well, it started pouring on us! Since we were in our swimsuits already and we were wet already we decided to dance in the rain. We took our stuff home and then just wandered the streets of Laie! It was great! We stopped at my friend Lindsay's house to say hi and she thought that we were wet because we were in the ocean before it started raining... but no, we were soaked because of the rain!

So school or rain... either way it ruins what could be a beautiful day!

Here's my sign :)

So as I was driving yesterday I saw a car with Hawaii license plates... In UTAH of all places!!! At first I didn't notice because I am used to seeing Hawaii license plates, but then I looked at the other cars and remembered that I was in Utah and that the car with Hawaii plates was really out of place :) Then later on as I was driving I saw a mini van with a license plate frame that said, Matsumoto shaved ice North Shore, HI. What's with all the Hawaii reminders?? Guess its time to go back :)

Twilight Craziness!

Okay so as you may know the final book in the Twilight series came out last Saturday and Barnes and Noble was throwing a huge party for the crazed fans to come and buy their copies of the newest arrival right at midnight friday night. Well my friends happen to be crazed fans... or maybe just crazy... so we went to Barnes and Noble on Friday night to be one of the first ... of what seemed like thousands of people... to get the book. Why? I'm not sure! The book will still be there in the morning the next day!!!
Anyways, we went to Barnes and Noble and had to park forever away because there were so many people... scratch that... so many GIRLS there!!!! Apparently the theme of the party was prom because everyone was dressed up in formals.... not cute ones either! We all tried to cram into the store and I accidentally touched one to many bare backs because all of the dresses were slutty!!! It was smelly and all of the people seemed really really weird to me! I have never before seen such a weirder bunch of people. Not even at Harry Potter or Star Wars events!
The store tried to make things fun by having Bingo and people dressed up like the characters from the book to take pictures with, but all that did was create more chaos! The Bingo winners would scream bloody murder when they had a bingo, and the rest of the store was one HUGE line because of the pictures and the free book drawing!
Anyways after being in the store for just about an hour we found out that in order to get in line to buy the book you had to have a wristband that they gave out earlier that morning at 9!!! HAHAHAHA What??!? You mean to tell me that we drove all the way up there and waited in line to find out that we were already too late? It didn't make sense because the store ordered 8000 copies!! There was no way they were going to run out!! After all that, we walked... WALKED down to Wal-mart which was like 7 huge stores and two parking lots away!!! Needless to say I did not even buy a book!! Oh the trouble I went through, for nothing!!! :)

All dressed up with nowhere to go!!

So on Saturday Leschia, Ashley and I were planning on going to a stake carnival. We met at Ashley's house so that we could decide where to eat dinner before we headed out to the carnival. Well once there, they decided to curl my hair... I swear I was sitting in that chair for so long! And once Leschia was done with my hair, Ashley decided to hurry and put makeup on me while I was sitting down and couldn't move. It took so long to do that it was like 8 before we went to eat and I was starving! Anyways, so we went to the new thai restaurant on main street in Lehi, which was really good!! Then we attempted to find the carnival :) We drove all the way out to Eagle Mountain, got lost, and wasted gas all to find out that the carnival had already ended :) hahaha I couldn't help but think that it was a waste of time to do my hair for nothing :) Anyways, we ended up at Ashley's house watching a movie... I was all dolled up with nowhere to go!

Okay so since I haven't been on here for a while I thought that it was time to post again. I have been just bumming around for the summer. I live at home, trying to save some pennies, and I am taking an online class. Which I really need to start studying more for. I just struggle reading the textbook because I have never done that for any of my other classes, but since I don't have a teacher, reading is a must!! I don't like it and I usually start to doze :) Other than that I have been going to my sister's house in Smithfield and going to family reunions. This weekend I am thinking of going to Las Vegas to visit my brother so that should be exciting! Traci if you want you can come!! :)

One of the songs we jammed to!!!

My fun b-day party!

Okay so apparently I really struggled with this post because I wrote a huge thing and then it erased and then it posted as a blank post just barely... Anyways, my birthday was really fun! When I woke up that morning my roommate came into my room carrying a cutting board as a tray with chocolate pancakes -one in the shape of an N and one in a heart shape- with some scrambled eggs! It was so yummy!! I didn't do much during the day, but I was planning on having a party that night. I ended up having a big projector to put movies on a big screen in our house. Originally we were going to do it outside, but then it was rainy all day... So when I got home from Subway my roommates had rearranged the whole living room and set up the screen so that we could accommodate for more people. As I walked up to the house, from the outside I could see these huge shadows through the window because my roommates were dancing in front of the projector to make shadows on the screen... so we had a dance party of sorts! It was so fun we got crazy with A Whole New World, Part of that world, and many many more :) At one point we were singing to Josh Groban's You Raise Me Up and some boys walked into the house and then walked right back out because they didn't know what to do with it! It was a blast! After we danced we watched The Emperor's New Groove! It was my birthday gift to me!!! Anyways my roommates made so many yummy treats and we sang happy birthday twice!! The second movie we watched was the Fugitive! There was so many people over and at one point my roommate Jessica counted and there were 30 people here just for me... and that is not counting all the people that came and left throughout the night!! All in all it was a very fun day!

Birthday

So my birthday is coming up in less than a week and I just don't know what to do for it... I am not sure that I am cool enough for a party cause I don't know if anyone will show up. I could just go out to eat with some friends... but then who do I invite? I don't want to plan on other people planning something for me because then I will most likely be disappointed when we do nothing. I hate having to plan something for myself... Sometimes I wish I was younger and didn't have to plan my own birthday activities because it was just given that I would have a party after school and I would invite pretty much everyone that I knew... So maybe that is what I should do... I should invite everyone that I know.... Or maybe just go eat somewhere nice with a few friends... oh I am still torn.... What do you think?

Dinner time!

Okay so it is really tough to eat good healthy meals when you are cooking for one person. It is a lot of work to make a huge meal just for yourself, so I usually just don't cook. Also, this may sound weird, but I kind of like having people try the food that I cooked to tell me how good or bad it tastes too. :) So, yesterday I decided that I wanted to make a really yummy Sunday dinner. I made Chicken cordon bleu, with homemade mashed potatoes and gravy, asparagus, and some stuffing. It tasted to good and looked like such a cute home-cooked meal that I thought I would share it with you! :) Its funny cause every time I make a meal like this my roommates think it is all extravagant... When my roommates walked into the kitchen and saw my plate they all commented on the meal I was having! Some people learn to cook while they are away from home and others learn how to use a microwave and how to open a box of pasta roni. I usually follow that path, but not yesterday! Maybe now I can get me a man! :) haha

ALOHA

Aloha everyone:
I am new to this blogging thing, but my sister's blog looked so fun that I thought I would get one myself!